I know nothing, I admit it. Sometimes I think I know something, atleast have a clue on what's going on with life but actually, I don't. Sad, I know. I don't plan my life perfectly like some other people did. I make mistakes, lots of its, and do wrongs. But then, I'd learn from it and however, I'll screw up, big time, again.
And the new huge thing that I like the least in my life is school.
Lately, I realized how I much I don't like school, the people in it, the homeworks etc.
Seeing everything makes me feel downn, wayy down.
Lucky for me, I've got my backups to help me get through the day, atleast for 7 hours or so. But still, she's not in the same stream as me and I really miss being in the same class with her, being able to talk about anything at anytime and somehow, not really missing her at the end of the day.
Now, I really really missed her. We rarely hung out together because we're both busy.
I like her because she's honest. Unlike the other friends, or so-called friends.
I feel somehow, used by them. And it hurts, really bad.
I don't know why I'm typing these.
Maybe I'm just sick of school, of life, of reality.
I don't know. Its still a mystery. And unsolved one.
I just wish I could be with only the personS I love.
But its a huge world, and I know, in order to achieve that, I've got to love every person in this world, or like them, atleast, and I've tried loving the people surrounding me.
And sometimes it feels like shit. But, I tend to forget everything and just be normal with them.
But soon, the same thing will happen all over again.
Confusing, I know.
It's life. That's why.
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