Mellow Cello

My emotions are all over the place right now and to try to sit and study doesn’t seem like the best option so I chose to blog instead. If you were to see me in person, you’d think of me as an average young adult living her life normally. I’d like to think of that too. I mean I am an average in everything I do. It’s just that as of now, I have too many unsupportive people surrounding me. It’s not that I don’t have people to talk to it’s just that I know my friends have too much on their plate and listening to my petty cry of help is the last thing that they would want to do. I understand and respect that. That is why I try so hard to be there for the people I love and put aside all of my problems for their sake. But now things aren’t going so well and I’m so close to bursting out of my own skin. Luckily I have the internet, a place where I can whine and pour my heart out all I want without having to burden anyone.

Ladidadida music keeps me sane too. Some people may not agree on the genres of music I listen to. Little did they know that numbers of time I wish music was a human being cuz it’s the only thing that seems to fully understand my feelings. It’s nice to know that you’re not alone in this world and that there’s someone out there who truly understands you, it’s just that they’re living miles away from you.

Whatever it is that’s going to happen we’ll let it be. I thank the people who intentionally endowed me my bitter memories because you’ve made stronger each and every day. Thick-skinned and head up high; never will I give a fuck to those that are trying to bring me down. Too many scars but I’m not giving up.

                 “Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
And sometimes you really live, you’ve gotta try
We can change it all together, in the end you’re gonna find
That what we felt in our hearts was real the whole time
When you open up your eyes, I hope that you find
Who you are, who you are”

-Sleeping with Sirens

I'll be okay :)