I kept asking why

But nobody has the answer.
Why must it always be me?
Why am I the one to be blame?
I am so so so tired.
I've got other pressures too.
Do you want me to pop my head open and die?
Seriously, if you want to, say it to my face.
Whats the use of having you around not to help me?
I don't know whether to hate you or not.
I can't hate you. I can't hate people anymore.
And that's my weakness.
I do feel like giving up. Most of the time. Feels like I've got no strength left in me.
But faith helps me get through it. Not you.
People have problems. I know you do.
But don't you think I have my own problems too?
Why don't you try, for once, to have a heart.
People say revenge is sweet. I'm too lazy to set my plans.
Hopefully you'll realize me sooner or later.

P/s: You are killing me deep inside.

Isn't it easy.

Fyuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Lama tak update sehhhhh.
Now, I'm back on track.
Ready with fresh new ideas.

GRRRR

FIRST DAY OF THE MONTH SAYA PONTENG SEKOLAH.
HAHA. :D
ADA REASON LAH.PASAL TU PONTENG.
PENAT LARI FOR LARIAN KECERGASAN.
THEN TUITON.
PASTU SWIMMING.
MANA TAK BENGKAK SAKK KAKI.
HAHHAA.
TAPI NAMPAKNYA DAH BERANSUR PULIH.
SO, ESOK DAH BOLEH PEGI SKOLAH KOT.
TEEHEE :0

Everything is so surreal.

Yes it is.
A week ago I was still sixteen, now I'm going on to seventeen.
Yesterday I was spending quality time with families.
During the last hour, I was having a great time mixing solutions with friends.
Now I'm home.
Actually, I was exaggerating, only the first part was meaningful.
The other ones are common things that we do everyday.
Anyways, tomorrow, there will be Biology and Accounts class.
YET, I have not finished my schoolworks and chores.
I hate it when people just look at things easily.
You see, not everything is easy in this world, that's why we have responsibilities.
Everyone help each other and make the difficult things easier.
Don't just let go. Act like it's not your business. It is yours. Enough said.
Take responsibilities on your action.
OH AND BY THE WAY.
I TRIED TO BE NICE TODAY.
BUT HE IRRITATES ME AGAIN.
SMELLING SULPHUR ALL DAY LONG IS BETTER THAN SITTING IN A ROOM WITH HIM.
It's not that I hate him or something, but everything I do seems wrong to him.
WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF.
I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING ASSHOLE.
CURSE YOU.

A walk to remember,

Read the book, saw the movie.
Love both of 'em.
But the book was better.
It unravels their love story so slowly that you didn't realize that he was already in love with her.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Thanks Azalia! :D

This Heart

If only this blog could get dusty, then it would've been dusty.
Its been quite sometimes since I've updated anything. Yes, I've been busy.
Not studying, but I went out and see the world, but only part of it.
But eventhough its a part, but I felt like I've seen a lot, I guess my tiny mind is too small for more. But yeah, I admit it. Its kinda fascinating. Analyzing people. Trying to guess whats in their head.
Hey, I'm not trying to be Edward Cullen, but it's true, thats kinda my 'part-time hobby.
And yeah, its 2010, everybody keep saying, do you know what you want to be when you grow up? And my answer would be, Umm Yeah. But the truth is, its a big no.
I don't know what I like. Last year, I've put all my hardworks on studying physics, but it turned out to be very disappointing.
And people say don't give up. I don't know whether to believe it or not.
I guess when school reopens, we could find out.
Oh well.