I kept asking why

But nobody has the answer.
Why must it always be me?
Why am I the one to be blame?
I am so so so tired.
I've got other pressures too.
Do you want me to pop my head open and die?
Seriously, if you want to, say it to my face.
Whats the use of having you around not to help me?
I don't know whether to hate you or not.
I can't hate you. I can't hate people anymore.
And that's my weakness.
I do feel like giving up. Most of the time. Feels like I've got no strength left in me.
But faith helps me get through it. Not you.
People have problems. I know you do.
But don't you think I have my own problems too?
Why don't you try, for once, to have a heart.
People say revenge is sweet. I'm too lazy to set my plans.
Hopefully you'll realize me sooner or later.

P/s: You are killing me deep inside.