I kept asking why

But nobody has the answer.
Why must it always be me?
Why am I the one to be blame?
I am so so so tired.
I've got other pressures too.
Do you want me to pop my head open and die?
Seriously, if you want to, say it to my face.
Whats the use of having you around not to help me?
I don't know whether to hate you or not.
I can't hate you. I can't hate people anymore.
And that's my weakness.
I do feel like giving up. Most of the time. Feels like I've got no strength left in me.
But faith helps me get through it. Not you.
People have problems. I know you do.
But don't you think I have my own problems too?
Why don't you try, for once, to have a heart.
People say revenge is sweet. I'm too lazy to set my plans.
Hopefully you'll realize me sooner or later.

P/s: You are killing me deep inside.

I THINK

THE TEACHERS ARE IN A CONTEST.
''WHO GIVES THE MOST HOMEWORKS''
''WHO MAKES A STUDENT LIFE MOST MISERABLE''


HAHAHA.
THIS, I MUST ENDURE.
A YEAR LEFT.
THEN, IT'S A CONTEST FOR ALL THE EX FORM 5s/2010.
''WHO WAKES UP LATE''
''WHO PASS THEIR DRIVING LICENSE''
ETC.


superstition. i like this word. :)

Everything is so surreal.

Yes it is.
A week ago I was still sixteen, now I'm going on to seventeen.
Yesterday I was spending quality time with families.
During the last hour, I was having a great time mixing solutions with friends.
Now I'm home.
Actually, I was exaggerating, only the first part was meaningful.
The other ones are common things that we do everyday.
Anyways, tomorrow, there will be Biology and Accounts class.
YET, I have not finished my schoolworks and chores.
I hate it when people just look at things easily.
You see, not everything is easy in this world, that's why we have responsibilities.
Everyone help each other and make the difficult things easier.
Don't just let go. Act like it's not your business. It is yours. Enough said.
Take responsibilities on your action.
OH AND BY THE WAY.
I TRIED TO BE NICE TODAY.
BUT HE IRRITATES ME AGAIN.
SMELLING SULPHUR ALL DAY LONG IS BETTER THAN SITTING IN A ROOM WITH HIM.
It's not that I hate him or something, but everything I do seems wrong to him.
WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF.
I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING ASSHOLE.
CURSE YOU.

Look into the sky and hope,

It's the fourth day of schooling. My van sucks.
The honk goes PONNNNNNNNNN! seriously, its too loud. F
The brake goes EEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKK! M
The seat is as if I'm sitting on some scrap metals. L
Van yang nama tak boleh disebut SUCKS BIG TIME. !
Anyways, I feel tired of everything. I know, I may be exaggerating but its fact.
People are expecting a lot from 5Amanah. Curse me for being in that class.
But like I said, I'm ready, all weapons up, and this dark battlefield, I stand alone with all my friends, fighting our best. I don't know whats worst.
But all I know is that it'll be over soon.
So, let it have a happy ending.
This, I can endure.
Lots of homeworks, I can survive that too.
But when talks too much about Us, negatively, its unacceptable.
But to tell the truth, I don't give a damn, thats their mouth, and they have the right to talk.
MAYBE, I COULD SHUT THEIR MOUTH UP. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
TAKE THEM DOWN THE EASY WAY. SHALL IT BE A SHOTGUN OR SNIPER?
Hahahaha. I wish it was that easy. :/