tattling twenty

There is nothing more exhilarating and enlightening than to be inspired after watching a movie. Many times I have felt this way but I am just too lazy to turn on the laptop and update anything on my blog because I feel that it would take up time and my fresh-from-the-oven ideas will all be bland by the time I log on to my account. Even at this stage, I'm starting to slowly forget the bits and pieces of what I wanted to write earlier on but it must be done because I have been away for too long to not write anything on this website. Of course some may say, "That's what smartphones are for, to update anything conveniently", call me old-fashioned but I would rather type it out using a proper keyboard than to struggle with the virtual ones. That is not even considered old-fashioned, at least we have keyboard during my time, back then, all there were were only ink and feathers or the typewriters, in which I find very interesting and would hope to get the chance to use it some day. However, pen and paper works best for me. Nothing beats the feeling of ache after writing tons of words that come from the heart and processed by the nerves in your brain, transmitted through impulses and responded, thus moving your hand, be it left or right, to write down those emotions.

Days passed and before I knew it, I have already turned twenty. Everyone thought I was getting older and expected me to be wiser. Two decades of life on earth and I have not contributed anything to my society. Can't even say I have lived my life to the fullest but I am getting there. Seizing any opportunities that come in my way. Although there are at times when I feel that everything is just a wee bit overwhelming for me, gladly enough I will find a way to pass through it like a breeze wind in the Caribbean sea. I feel like that is what I do best, constructing different plans to calm myself down. I guess in a way, I am confident that everything will be okay because like it or not, things will end, be it good or bad. So it's best for me to sink in the moment or try my best to endure and just go with the flow. At the end of the day, what matters will be the things that I have accomplished.

To sum it all up, my birthday kinda sucked this year. But I guess birthdays are meant to be like that. Honestly I almost forgotten that it was my birthday, luckily a good friend of mine came all the way to surprise me with cupcakes and indeed, I was surprised. I am just thankful to have lived up until today and pray that I soon find a purpose in my life because as of now, I am still clueless. There are just so many things that I want to do such as, end the world hunger, put a stop to the civil war in Syria, free education for all especially the ones in third world countries and by education, I meant legit education that will help them to establish a creative and critical thinking abilities so on and so forth, the list would take forever.

The only thing I know is that I want to help people not because I want to be recognized as a good person. It is because I believe that that is the sole reason to why God created mankind in the first place, it is for us to help one another to become better in what we do. It is even being taught in the mainstream religions or religions that I am familiarized with. Labels do not differentiate who we are because we are all the same. If organs can be donated than what is the burden to lend a hand to someone who needs it?

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” ― Mae West