lepak

Today's the first day of my first semester break and i must say that things are pretty dull at home. I'm just sitting at home doing fat-nothing just because i feel like it. Honestly, i just don't care anymore. I don't mind not going out as long as i have my internet at home, it really is where the heart is. And family and my pets.

Last couple of days were a bit challenging for me I must say because I had to step out of my comfort zone and attend a class with people that I am unfamiliar with. But they all gave me a warm welcome and made me feel comfortable even though i am just a junior. I can't say i feel included all the time but i get it, when you get too comfortable with your friends, there's nothing you can't talk about, inside jokes between one another and memories. I totally get that. I loved the fact that they're really close to one another, almost like a family. When I screwed up my speech, they were all being very supportive and told me it's okay, that they had their experiences as well which made me feel okay. However, I am not okay with me screwing up, I'm just glad that they are being nice to me.

On a more serious note (not that i wasn't being serious before), debating is really something i want to pursue. I think i have what it takes to debate with other people, i just need to gather more info and find more examples in order to further substantiate my speech. Convincing and confident, something that i want to master as well. I like being around people who are way more better than i am because i like to improve myself. I like challenges, but i tend to breakdown sometimes, but i know everyone has problems too. It's just the matter of finding ways to overcome it.